Life - more than just cancer

 My friends keep on telling me to write and inspire the world. Had been postponing it for so long, as I myself wasn't inspired or in the headspace to think it inspiring or worth writing about. I am still not sure if it will help anyone but maybe it will just help me releasing my emotions.

I was a simple girl from a simple family who just wanted to be happy and married to the love of my life (what was i thinking). But then 5 years into the relationship the guy declared love is finished so lets just finish us also. Mind you this happened when i quit my job. So in a week I was jobless and boyfriend less. I was heartbroken, soul crushed, crying that how could this happen to me. But after almost 2 months of crying and being numb I went on a trip to my favorite city London. I used up all my dad's miles and got a vacation for 15 days in 20K (flight) and another 60K living and eating and just trying to live life again.

I had a mental breakdown on the trip but was with my best friend who helped. I traveled alone also for 4 days to Scotland with random strangers (very exhilarating) and something I hadn't done before. It opened my eyes and also gave me confidence that life moves on and not all people are bad. Another first I bought makeup on the trip (mom was very happy), I am a girl but wasn't into dressing up or make up. Then I came back and started working with my parents and had good friends also who helped me come out of the trauma. Have one night of partying story (maybe for some other time). Work also helped and I learned a lot. Then my parents friends started hinting to settle down and get married as it will help and is the best thing in the world (really!! solution to a lot of problems). 

I just had 2-3 conditions and a time line in head that if till 31st Jan no rishta finalize then I wanted to move abroad for work as relatives and family get togethers wasn't my scene. Look at my luck I met my husband on 31st of Jan and we had a beautiful courtship of 9 months and we got married.  I thought now life is set and no more problems (besides settling in a joint family). But guess what 7 years down the line I got Cancer for the first time. Had surgery, chemo and radiation and then I thought ok no worries (after initial shock and treatment) life is worth living lets keep on living. But then cancer relapsed in 1.5 years and then in less than 2 years for the third time. But I didn't give up as my family and friends were very supportive and helped me, especially my parents, husband and 2 friends. Then came 2023 I had a relapse in less than 10 months and within 4 days of knowing about the diagnosis I lost my husband to an accident.....